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[meme] It's January bro



I rung in the New Year in a moshpit on the streets of Bangkok and nearly cried (but didn't!) because it's such a lovely change from last year.
The DJ was adorable, the crowd was insane but sweet (at the front - apparently it was really scary trying to get in after 11p - which, duh), afterwards we wandered down to street bars - were accosted by a troup of shirtless farang, and relaxed as the crowds dwindled. It was lovely and crowded and dancing and crazy.

Fandom in review - stolen from everyone
1. Your main fandom of the year: I want to say BtVS - but that's not entirely true? Probably a cross between Buffy/Infinite in all.

2. Your favourite film this year: Probably Selena Gomez's Spring Breakers. There were other fabu films this year, but this one had me weeping openly at the end because of just how lovely it was. Seriously. I've never seen such a gritty, yet-lovely, girl-power movie in my life.

3. Your favourite book of the year: I cannot possibly do this. I read so many lovely things this year. Warm Bodies was fantastic! but so was Ink Exchange (my favorite of the Wicked Lovely series) but also the Bloodlines series! I CAN'T CHOOSE YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!

4. Your favourite song or album of the year: This has only very recently come into my life, but Fifth Harmony's Me & My Girlsis possibly the best happy-song I've acquired this year. I've also been obsessed with The Neighborhood's Female Robbery
. Also Tablo's
고마운 (Thankful Breath) feat. Yankee & Bong Tae Gyu and Leessang's TV 껐네 (Turned off the TV) feat.Tasha, Kwon Jungyeol OF 10CM. And for the better part of this year (before Fifth Harmony took over my listening habits) I was listening to Janelle Monae's Dance Apocalyptic non-stop. Probably at the end of the day, Female Robbery wins all the Kelsey-awards. ... That's not true - all of these are lovely and I cannot choose between them. Seriously you should listen to them all! Turns out I really, really love k-indie-rap?!
(I'm not including Jaejoong's new album or GD's because THEY ARE A BLIGHT ON MY LIFE.)

However, I've been mostly in a playlist-mode this year (thank you 8tracks!) and my tops for this year are: Only Time Will Tell -Now I'm that Bitch - First We'll Live
- Escapism - a black cat (for warrior queens)
I highly suggest you try all of these on for size - everything in this list is lovely and cannot be discarded.

5. Your favourite tv show of the year: The Lizzie Bennet Diaries. Probably Hart of Dixie overall - because it was my happy!escape place. Vampire Diaries and I are not speaking (still watching but def not my favorite anymore), Doctor Who was so full of disappoint this year also, OUAT has been keeping me pretty happy. Probably The Heirs was the greatest surprise of the year (and FBND) but I've been unable to finish either (and have NO PLANS to finish Heirs so...) Also Alias - S3 remains a bright spot of joy in my life!Elementary and Hannibal are high up on my list of happy places also.

6. Your favourite LJ community of this year: umm... I ignore communities?

7. Your best new fandom discovery of the year: The Heirs. The Lizzie Bennet Diaries.

8. Your biggest disappointment of the year: UGH I don't want to do this. I've been in a funk this year so it's not fair. (Probably Fringe tbh - when Olivia gave up her Self for Peter, I quit the show and know I ought to go back, but I am REALLY bitter.)

9. Your TV boyfriend of the year: Youngdo's eyebrows. Jeremy Gilbert (always).
9a. Your Movie boyfriend of the year: Smaug

10. Your TV girlfriend of the year: Clara ... CHA EUNSANG!!! MY KINGDOM FOR MY PRINCESS!!!
10a. Your Movie girlfriend of the year: Mako-fucking-Mori (and Tauriel probs)

11. Your biggest squee moment of the year: idek how to answer this... maybe the moment in 47 Ronin when Mako Mori turned into a dragon... probably that. I don't feel like I squeed all that much this year. Or maybe in OUAT when you realize Pan's been holding Wendy captive this whole time - but that was more dramatic-sobbing than squee. Or possibly the fact thatSleepy Hollow exists.

12. Your most missed old fandom: eljay. quite frankly I just miss fandom interaction. tumblr has stolen the people and I feel like I'm floating and alone there? so I rarely go anymore. tumblr makes me feel really lonely and sad ... which is not at all what I want from fandom. so mostly I just miss HAVING an active fandom at all.

13. The fandom you haven't tried yet, but you want to: Skins. And Luther. And Leverage.

14. Your biggest anticipation of the New Year: The new season of Hannibal maybe? Capaldi!!! ((my kingdom for retired!doctor and retired!river trying to holiday at the beach and getting into scrapes on accident and him whining and her giggling and flirting while Clara works on her tan))

2013 fic in review (the short version) - stolen from rosaxx50

+ three times a wife, never a bride (tVD - Elena Gilbert)
an old box on a cloud (Doctor Who - Tardis(/11), River)
+ pancakes and noodles (Infinite RPF - 2woogyu)
+ we are two hard stones, come together and make us soft (Infinite RPF - 2wooyeol)
+ playing house (tVD - Jeremy/Caroline)
+ Bonnie/magic: autoeroticism **
+ Key/Woohyun: phonesex **
+ Annie/Abed: rape fantasy **
+ Blair/Jenny: lingerie, grooming **
+ Jeremy/Anna: ghost blow-job **
+ Lucius/Narcissa: long hair fetish, hair pulling, hair-washing **
+ tVD, Klaus/anybody: spanking, daddy!kink **
+ Jeremy/Elena : mirror **
+ we are always shadows (LOST - Sayid, Danielle, Alex)
+ Faith in the Noona-verse (SPN/BtVS - Faith/Ruby/Sam) ***
+ In our Noir Life (2/?) [the one where Damon wakes up in pink pajama pants] (tVD - DElena)
+ when the stars are stars again (tVD/BtVS/Who - dark!Amelia/Dawn/Elena)
+ back in the space where she is cleansed and healed (Hamlet - Ophelia)
+ let's keep playing this game with your pink socks to remind us how ("we must be ghosts to you") - (tVD - Caroline/Jeremy)
+ the new watcher (Miss A/BEG - Jia, Miryo)
+ like a summer's day (Oz the Great and Powerful - Evanora/Glinda/Theodora)
+ the unexpected (part one) (part two) (Infinite RPF - Myungsoo/OFC)
+ emotional black mail. your move (part one) (part two) (part three) (Infinite RPF - ot7)
+ there's no room at the round table for people like us (Veronica Mars - Veronica/Weevil/Logan)
+ come back to me (1/?) (BtVS/HP - Dawn/Ginny)
+ blurring the lines (BtVS - Buffy/Tara)
+ fire and ice (Twilight/BtVS - Bella/Dawn)
+ this little body of mine (TW/BtVS - Allison/Dawn)
+ behind the scenes (Noona - Hoya + Myungsoo) ***
+ In which Spike meets Dean (Noona - SPN/BtVS - Spuffy, Dean/Bela) ***
+ what is there in the end but unspoken word (The Heirs - Eunsang)
+ she likes to ruin them (she likes to watch) (The Heirs - Rachel/Eunsang/Youngdo(/Tan) )
+ I want to watch you shatter like glass (The Heirs - Eunsang/Tan)
+ love isn't feeling, it's war (The Heirs - Eunsang/Tan/Youngdo)
+ daughters and sons and broken hearts (The Heirs - Ki-ae)
+ the monster in me wants to eat the boy in you (The Heirs - Tan, Youngdo)
+ crushing all your walls right down (The Heirs - Eunsang/Youngdo)
+ untitled (BtVS - Dawn)
+ untitled (The Mortal Instruments - Clary/Jace)
+ all the little things (Veronica Mars - Veronica/Logan)
+ crashing smashing (SPN/BtVS - Sam/Ruby 2.0/Faith) ***
+ I didn't start out this way (Tolkien/The Hobbit - original dragon)

** three-sentence fics
*** Noona-verse based stories

number: 34 (+8 three-sentence fics)
most written fandom: The Heirs (7) [[ (4) Vampire Diaries; (3) Infinite RPF; (3) Dawn-centric; (2) BtVS; (2) Veronica Mars]]
main fic type: crossovers & femmeslash (also lots of porn?) ((let's not lie - mostly just angst!))
pairings: Dawn/ladies; Jeroline; Eunsang/angst

But most importantly::
The Noona-Verse (Infinite, Miss A RPF/BtVS/SPN)

- - for which I wrote 36,000+ words for (which totals 41k+ when you add the misc stories to it) !!!


meme questions::

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?
I thought this was a dead year for me – but apparently I wrote a LOT?! I mean, I knew that I wrote 40k+ in the Noona-verse, but I completely forgot about a LOT of other writing?! I mean… I wrote over 34 pieces that weren’t (for the most part) related to Noona. THIRTY FOUR! This year was really rough for me and I was feeling really unhappy about where I was/where I was going until recently.
This meme actually helped me see that maybe it wasn’t all bad.

Did you take any writing risks this year?

  • Um… I started a whole new Universe that incorporates 3+ fandoms!

  • I wrote ot7 porn! (seven men! omg!)

  • I wrote a lot of femmeslash for the first time ever!

Hell yeah I took writing risks this year.

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year?
To keep writing?

My best story of the year:
I don’t even know… I wrote a lot that I really like. Both of my Jeroline pieces are great. And all of my work for theHeirs fandom I am proud of.

My most popular story of this year:
According to my ao3 stats (which only include a very few pieces actually) my Noir-DElena piece is the most popular… but that’s cheating a bit since the first installment was published last year.

You’d probably have to tell me what your favorites were…

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
Noona. Absolutely my favorite thing I’ve ever written. In my humble opinion, everyone should be reading this and loving it – I know the kpop element really throws the BtVS/SPN crowds away (and vice versa) but… ugh… it’s so lovely and so full of love and I want to share it with everyone.

Most fun story to write:
three times a wife never a bride was a delight to write!

Also all of the Heirs fic – because it was a new fandom and was so angsty!

Honestly, I won’t write something if it isn’t fun. So I can’t really do this one. It’s too hard!

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:
Shipping Faith/Ruby 2.0 made me love Ruby 2.0 more than I ever thought possible.

Also – I remember distinctly having ~issues shipping Dawn with anyone last year. And then Sunggyu happened and suddenly – OH HELLS YES. And that changed everything.

To be perfectly clear: Sunggyu is - to date - the ONLY male that I can ship with Dawn. In the past year, I have come to the conclusion that Dawn is so gay. I don’t know why squishy-gyu breaks all of my Dawn/ladies rules… but he does.
(And that’s honestly the best part.)

Hardest story to write:
emotional blackmail. your move. – OT7 PORN. PORN IS FUCKING HARD OKAY? GUH THIS WAS DIFFICULT!!

crushing all your walls right down – I was tearing up while writing this, it was super emotional

Biggest disappointment:
The Victorious fic that never got written – and the fact that I didn’t write ANY Victorious fic at all this year. HOW?! I miss my babies.

All the half-started, never-finished series that got left behind this year. (Especially my Myungsoo/OFC because she was fucking cute.)

Biggest surprise:
Noona-verse. FORTY ONE THOUSAND WORDS!? And I’m not terribly unhappy with any of it! There are parts that are rough and there are things I would change… but overall I’m so happy with this universe.

Most telling story:

an old box on a cloud – I wrote this in mourning for Amelia and the golden!Tardis at the beginning of this year. It’s supposed to be about so many things… but it’s really about me.

Periodically this year I’ve gone back to read this again and again because – this is possibly the most self-exposing fic that I’ve written this year. This is the space where I first started mourning the girl that I lost last New Year’s … the girl I can’t ever be again. So much of what I was mourning wasn’t Amelia or the golden!Tardis, but the part of myself that I foolishly thought was safe. If there’s ever a moment in my life when I need to remember – or remind myself – or when I want to sink into how far I’ve come: this is the place I can go. There’s such a huge difference between an old box on a cloud and say… I want to shatter you like glass. Tardis gave me a voice when I needed to mourn and miraculously, Cha Eunsang gave me a voice when I was ready to breathe fire, when I was ready to be angry –she was there.

I think reading an old box and then shatter you like glass is a good way of seeing just how far I’ve come this year. And I love that about fic. I love that I’ve found a space where I can work out how I am feeling about… oh about so many things.

I wrote so much this year guys. I can't believe it.

eta: The very first fic I wrote was published on October 9, 2010
since that time I have written:

+++ 65 pieces of fic
+++  163,600+ words

Vampire Diaries : 16 works - 49,000 words
Noona-Verse: 41, 900 words
Infinite RPF: 5 works - 14,800 words
Buffy the Vampire Slayer: 12 works - 14,800 words
The Heirs: 7 works - 10,000 words
Harry Potter: 4 works - 8,200 words
Victorious: 4 works - 7,100 words

I know this may not seem like very much - but to me, this is thrilling and brilliant and exciting!
(Also - hurray for me finally making a fic masterpost and here's hoping I'll keep it updated in 2014!)

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